Epiphaneotos

You did that to her

She used to run, for absolutely no reason, just because she could.
Now she’s on her knees, unable to move.
You did that to her.

She used to be quiet, until she would burst into laughing, for absolutely no reason, just because she could.
Now she’s just quiet, occasionally bursting into to tears.
You did that to her.

You. Small, little, tiny, you.
You’ve managed to smother the most beautiful sunflower.
Do you know that?

So I’m wondering.
What did you expect from me when you called that night?
Begging for help, for hope, for a hand to pick you up?
Did you think that I’d grab a shovel, and dig a hole for you to burry her in?

Boy, you were so wrong.
I’ve spend the last months going out of my way to make sure she wouldn’t die.
Breathing for her when you would strangle her. Forcing air into her tired lungs.
Fighting every centimeters of you on her skin.

I’m waiting in the background, ready to jump in at the next catastrophe.
I will not force her out of this cage of guilt you’ve built around her, but rest assured, I will be there when she breaks free. And I will be there when she breaks.

And when she won’t be able to stop crying, I’ll encourage her to let the tears run.
I’ll collect these tears, I’ll put them in a big bucket, and I’ll carry this bucket to you.
Now, I’m no expert in torture technics, but I have a few ideas about what to do with this bucket, and all of them involve you gasping for air at some point.

And let me tell you one more thing.
If she and I were sisters, our last name would be resilience.
We never stay on our knees for too long. We’ve survived deaths much scarier than you.
You are just a grain of sand in her eye, and this girl lives by the beach. The next tide will wash you away, and as she will walk amongst the dunes, you will mean nothing.

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3 thoughts on “You did that to her

  1. Ossídio Gaspar says:

    Fucking Glorious! “The next tide will wash you away, and as she will walk amongst the dunes, you will mean nothing.”

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